2ww's suck!

So here I am contemplating taking an HPT just to torture myself. Apparently some women "test out" their trigger shots. My doc originally said no HPT's until day 14 because the trigger shot could cause a false positive. Well some women test starting day 7 until either their pregnancy is confirmed or Aunt Flo shows up. Most women will go negative indicating that the trigger is out of their system and then positive again indicating they are pregnant. From what I'd heard it's not uncommon to get positives up until 10 days past trigger. So at 8 days past trigger I took an HPT and it was negative. At first I was devastated because I thought it hadn't worked because it was already out of my system. Then I did some more research and some people say that it is out of your system in as early as 7 days and others say the half-life approach is an indicator and in that case it would have been 99% out of my system on Tuesday and most say anything over 93.75% is considered completely out. So that made me feel better that I still have a chance. Now for determining the # of days past (IUI, trigger, O, etc.). I'm so anxious to get to my testing that I'm trying to figure out the earliest I can test. For example, my trigger shot was on Tuesday the 29th at 9:15pm so I'm not counting that as a day and therefore as of tonight at 9:15 I am 9dptrigger (days past trigger). On the other hand, my IUI was at 8:30am last Thursday the 31st. Originally I didn't count Thursday as a day and said I wouldn't test until Thursday the 14th. Then I got to thinking that my IUI was so early that I could count that as a day and therefore I will be 14dpIUI on Wednesday the 13th in turn getting to test a day earlier. I know I'm stretching it but I'm just so nervous. With having had 2 miscarriages that were so early I want to find out as soon as possible so that any precautions necessary may be taken to prevent miscarriage. I was sitting here thinking the other day that getting pregnant is only a small piece of the journey. Then I'm going to be worrying everyday about miscarriage at least for the first 3 months. I really wish I could concentrate on my school work because I have a lot to do and that sure would keep my mind off the 2ww but I can't think about something more than 5 minutes before I'm distracted. I'm really praying this is it because I honestly think I will have to go on a TTC hiatus if it doesn't.