Where o' where have I been????

Busy...that's where! Wow when I say that it's an understatement. School and work keeps me insanely busy and there for a while I was even take a couple of exercise classes and a financial class 3 nights a week. I unfortunately gave up on the classes at night because I simply needed time to get stuff done and I was missing out on a lot of quality time with Derick. So what's been happening since last time: October-had my surgery and everything came back fine. Turned 26. November-Verena came to visit which was awesome! I miss her so much. We hope to meet up in Ireland next year. We will see. Started a new cycle on clomid. December-Didn't respond to the clomid and a small cyst developed so the next cycle would be cancelled. Christmas was great as usual. I finished up my first semester of school and did great! I was very proud of myself. January-Derick turned 27. School started back. I'm not full time because I've taken all my prereq classes for nursing. FIL finally moved out of the house. I took my nursing entrance test and did very well! Started a new cycle on a higher dose of clomid. February-School and work. Was not responding to the clomid so cycle was cancelled again. Derick lost his job but was able to find a new one quickly, thank goodness. March-This was a busy month! I took my last few tests I need for my nursing application. I got that turned in and was accepted just last week! I will start next fall. We went on vacation with Aaron and Sarah to Florida. It was great to finally have a real vacation in almost 2 years. I started a new cycle of clomid at a higher dose. This was the last cycle of clomid before moving on to injectible drugs. I RESPONDED!!!!! When I went in for that ultrasound last week I was so nervous and the relief when he said we had some follies growing was just shock and great joy! There were 6 follies but one was small so really there were 5 good follies which means there's a chance for up to 5 babies but that isn't very likely. The doctor asked if I wanted to cancel the cycle and maybe try a lower dose next time but I wasn't responding to the lower doses so that didn't make much sense. And next step was more expensive drugs that were even more risky so no matter what I was most likely always going to have high numbers of follies so I decided to go through with it. I had to give myself an injection that night to stimulate ovulation. Then on Thursday we had our first IUI. It wasn't too bad. A little uncomfortable but no more than a routine exam really. I did have major cramping that afternoon and night and a little less the next few days. I'm hoping this was the actual ovulation taking place. Now just to patiently wait for 2 weeks to see if the cycle took. So here it is a few days past the IUI and I'm seriously going crazy waiting for the next 2 weeks to go by. Even if I do get pregnant I'm terrified of miscarrying again. I'm terrified I won't be pregnant and will let everyone around me down (especially Derick). I hate the idea of letting him down. We've finally had some things going right and I just want this to be it. If I am pregnant I will be due around Christmas which will be great because I will be on break from school. So here's hoping I make it until April 14th a sane person and with a BFP! Ok I guess that's a pretty good update. I better get back to work. I know I won't be able to post daily but hopefully I can come by for more often. Until next time....