Exhaustion and more

I am extrememly exhausted. Maybe because it's so hot in here or just going to bed late. I work both jobs today so I still have a long day ahead. I decided to blog now and hopefully it will help me stay awake.

Today has been an eventful day. I took a pregnancy test. Before you get too excited it wasn't because I thought I was pregnant I knew I wasn't. So why test? Peace of mind. I was on cycle day 35 and for me that's late. TMI WARNING:: There was some red/brown blood when wiping but that can be normal for pregnancy. I however knew I couldn't be pregnant due to timing of intercourse and ovulation unless by some miracle I ovulated really early or later than normal. So to keep my mind from going crazy I decided to go ahead and test that way I could confirm that aunt flo was in fact coming and it'd be time to start the IUI process soon. So I called the RE today and left a message for the nurse. I'm hoping she will call back before I go to the next job. If I remember correctly I will most likely have an ultrasound tomorrow or Monday. So the time has come to start the journey I've been waiting months for. I'm feeling so exhausted right now though that I can't really feel any excitement because I just want to go to bed. So I will more than likely post again when the doctor/nurse calls back as an update. I've been doing good about updating every day this week but I don't want to say I will continue to do it everyday (even though I want to) but I will definitly keep track of the eventful parts of this process. I want to remember the good and bad. Also, if anyone else stumbles across this blog in the future they can get an idea of what it's going to be like.

UPDATE: Nurse just called and it wasn't the best of news. My doctor won't be in town when I would be due to have the acutal IUI procedure so I have 2 options. 1) Do the clomid only this month (as I have in the past) or 2) Do the IUI but I will have to go to Charlottesville (2hrs away) at least twice for my midcycle ultrasound and the IUI procedure. They unfortunately charge more (about $50) which isn't bad but then you have to add in the travel costs and missing work. Decisions, decisions. I guess Derick and I have an important decision to make tonight. I go tomorrow at 11:30 for an ultrasound and to give them my decision.