What else could happen

I think I need to change the name of this blog to "All the things that could go wrong" because that's the how I feel right now. I never intended this blog to be a down in the dumps daily posting of what's wrong in my life and how I hate it. I honestly thought I'd be posting happy news and good things going on. It's just been one thing after another. I'm not a Debbie-Downer but honestly I don't know how I can feel any other way. I feel like life is spinning out of control. I can't handle this. I'm used to being on top of everything and now it's like I can't keep up. I don't like not being in control. Things should be good again. Derick has a good job and I have 2 jobs. We are making money again but it still seems like we are struggling. I feel like there is a tight grip around my heart and throat and I'm gasping for air just trying to hang on. Please give me a little light at the end of the tunnel for hope!